Sunday, December 27, 2009
I just discovered something very big.
Whenever I talk to someone, my eyes tend to wander around. I look at the surroundings because that's just how I am. BUT, on the off chance that my eyes did move on over to the other person's eyes, he or she will always, ALWAYS be looking right at me. Always.
That means that the person has been looking at me the entire time we were conversing! I got so paranoid after I realised this. I mean, I have to wonder whether or not I was being rude all this time.
I know about the social convention that requires you to look a person in the eyes if you are speaking to them, but that's really something I don't follow in my daily life. But I never considered myself to be rude. People always tell me that I'm rude. Well, they don't say it, but I can tell that they think that I have this snarky, impudent little mean streak inside of me.
Which I don't. Well maybe I do, but really, just another skeleton in the closet. But that's just it. It's in a closet.
And I wasn't making jokey jokes when I said that eye contact is hard! It's the most difficult thing ever. This is going to sound weird, but looking into a person's eyes makes me think that they can read my mind. Because it's so personal. Ew.
But I am trying to get used to it though. As a courtesy to others. And I'll get the hang of it, one day. Just wait.
Posted at Sunday, December 27, 2009 by
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Saturday, December 26, 2009
Cassius keeps dying. I don't get why that keeps happening. I got him the best armor, he has a double square range with his weapon, he looks exactly like a black Jade Curtiss, but he still keeps dying. You know how after every mission there's almost always an unlucky dead guy that had to take one for the team? Always Cassius.
Don't waste my time, Cassius!
Posted at Saturday, December 26, 2009 by
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I'm really scared of growing old.
Not growing up, but just growing old in general.
I don't know. I haven't figured this thing out yet. But for me, I guess it's like meeting a ghost or a big monster. They're scary, but the scariness of seeing them for the first time is what I fear the most. Get it? Like in horror movies. You don't scream when the killer starts chopping people, you scream when he suddenly pops up on the screen.
(Also, I forgot how this has anything to do with being scared of growing old.)
What I really mean is, the idea of being an old lady is terrifying. But the road that will lead me into becoming that, I think, won't be so bad.
Posted at Saturday, December 26, 2009 by
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Thursday, December 24, 2009
I'm putting a halt to the Psych marathons I have been throwing. Because today, I saw an episode that focused entirely on Lassiter.
My pants dissapeared into thin air in the middle of the episode. Just like that. Gone with the wind. Never to be found again.
Because THAT is how sexy he is.
Point = made.
Posted at Thursday, December 24, 2009 by
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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Hah, it's 5:15PM. How cute is that, right? Total coincidence.
Anyway, I can't make lemon squares. We don't have lemons. So, orange squares.
Posted at Wednesday, December 23, 2009 by
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It's 5:15AM. I should go to bed now, but I feel really depressed.
Going to bed while feeling sad is a dumb thing to do. I try not to do it. But I'm so sleepy. I don't feel like cheering myself up, but that's okay. Just another night.
Sighhhh.
Why did you have to be so special?
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Posted at Wednesday, December 23, 2009 by
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Last post for today, because I have something on my mind.
I want to make lemon squares. Sweet delicious lemon squares.
Posted at Tuesday, December 22, 2009 by
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Really, why are you reading this?
You know how (OF COURSE YOU KNOW RIGHT?) the players in Ragnarok Online all get teleported to the same entry point of the PvP arena lobby after you pay the 500z PvP fee? I assume it's still like that, yeah? Because it's been so long.
Anyways, when I played the Sakray server, one of my characters was a priest, and hence was able to teleport people with warp portals. I used to stand by the PvP entry point and cast a warp portal there, teleporting all the poor players to deadly dungeons. Glast Heim was my favourite.
Another character of mine was a knight. I got to level 70 and refused to level up anymore, because if I got to level 71, I would have to go to the PvP area for levels 71 to 80, which would mean that I would die immediately upon entry.
After RO stopped being free, I resorted to MapleStory. MapleStory was so lame. Even for me. And I'm always lame, so you know that's a bad sign. I don't remember much about it, but there was this one time that I got into a fight with this mean person, who told me that he wanted to buy my fork spear for 500 mesos, which I thought was ridiculous. The fight lasted a lot longer than I am proud of.
Then, I played like a million more games. O2Jam, Flyff, etc. - basically, all the lame ones.
Then I played Tales of Pirates! I thought that was a nice phase. I also dragged a few friends into that overcrowded hellhole of a server so I consider it one of my more social phases. But I never really got into the good part of that game. It's very user-unfriendly. My character walked around in undies all day because I couldn't figure out where the equipment menu was. And all I did was level up for no reason, which was pretty stupid considering how my time could have been spent doing better things.
I think it's hilarious, how often I say that. I have better things to do. HAH, as if. I'd better stop saying that though. One of these days, it'll actually come true, and then we'll all be sorry. Well, I would. I guess it wouldn't really affect anybody else. Forget that.
Posted at Tuesday, December 22, 2009 by
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Fluffy bunny, shady prairie.
So I really did make muffins today. I made vanilla muffins, lemon muffins, and chocolate chip muffins.
They were good.
It was actually my first time. My mother never taught me how our oven works, so I've never had the chance to bake before. Mmhm.
But anyways, my day was good. After the muffins were gone I went into the computer room and watched the remaining Psych episodes that I haven't watched. I'm really starting to get into the show. I only used to watch it if I managed to catch it airing on TV before. But I think I really like it.
(Lassiter is such a babe. Yumyumyumyum)
And also. I'm torn. I haven't finished Lost Odyssey yet but I've sort of been ignoring it. I'm on the last disc but ever since I started Spectral Force 3, I haven't touched anything else. You might think this little problem is benign and beneath you and whatnot, but to me it's totally huge. It's integral to my health and well-being.
Whatever, whatever. I've just finished my tuition now and I'm in a foul mood. Tuition does that.
Oh gosh, school is in two weeks.
Posted at Tuesday, December 22, 2009 by
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Falling in the way you fear it. <3
It's 4:46AM! I stayed up this late because I was listening to Robbie Williams. You should have seen my playlist. It was only the most amazing thing in the world.
Anyway. I'm getting sleepy now.
But when I wake up tomorrow, I'm going to make muffins! It's going to be awesome. I'm never leaving my house. NEVER!
Posted at Tuesday, December 22, 2009 by
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